What Next?

I'm sitting here at my keyboard wondering what I should say. Many different ideas, music clowning my faith pass through my mind.

It's difficult because an issue has been nagging at me over the past couple of years. I’ve been going through a difficult work transition. This transition is caused me to question the quality of my work. It's caused me to question the relationships I've had in my work to 18 years. I’ve struggled to turn “the page,” to find a focus to get over not being in charge. It’s been hard, harder than I thought it would be. It’s like I got a divorce, but I’m still working with the person I divorced. 

I also feel overlooked and underappreciated. Most everyone seems to be happy at work. Meanwhile, I’m left feeling bitter. Bitter because I left one organization for a new start. Ironically the organization I left is the one that valued my opinion. The one that I helped to create doesn't respect my point of view.